"So what do you do?"
The question from the personal trainer and wellness coach sitting across from me at the table caught me off guard. I was there to talk to him about what he did and what others could do for a work assignment. I wasn't there to talk about me.
But then I looked down at my belly, and I realized at this point in the pregnancy it's not 100 percent clear that I'm training for two. The midsection, covered in layers of sweaters, looked thick — not fit.
Feeling put on the spot, I started scrambling.
"I like long distances!"
"I strength train, too. Two times a week!"
And then there was a sigh of relief. I felt as if I had proven myself to the trainer, given myself credibility to be working on the piece that I was.
There might have been a part of me, too, that was convincing myself. I'm definitely running — and working out, in general — less than I did 8 weeks ago. It's in large part because I'm no longer training, another part because of a changed teaching schedule. And, to be honest, there is a tiny part that doesn't want to stress about doing much more.
Here's how my weeks look:
Monday: Rip (45 minutes)
Tuesday: Run, 5-6 miles
Wednesday: Rip (45 minutes)
Thursday: Run, 5-6 miles; lead boot camp
Saturday: Run, 8-9 miles
Sunday: Run, 6 miles
Last week, I logged 26.66 miles (creepy!), and I felt good with it. Each run felt long enough but not exhausting and overall strong. My pace has yet to drop significantly, which might be the most surprising thing. I ranged from an 8:59 pace over 6 miles on Sunday (by myself) to a 9:47 pace for my long run, which included about 3 miles on trails. Most outings are in the 9:15 range.
I have seen more of a change when I'm resistance training. I haven't taught Rip two times a week since the spring, and my weight selections are definitely lower than what they were. I have seen some slight improvements over the past couple weeks, and I attribute that to the mind-muscle connection. Basically, my body is remembering what the hell it feels like to do Rip twice a week. I do have a harder time with core and I can feel myself struggle with planks and push-ups. The extra weight in the belly has me selecting modifications in tracks/workouts when I otherwise wouldn't.
I would like to add some light cardio on the days I teach/do Rip. I've been far too addicted to "America's Next Top Model" on Prime, and I'm contemplating only watching it if I'm walking on the treadmill. I'm also hoping to have my bike on the trainer soon so I can just spin the legs for 30 minutes. It's not so much about fitness or calorie burn but keeping up my energy. I feel as if I'm more tired at night than I was with Miles, and it's too easy to fall asleep at 8:30.
I'm 19 weeks today, and I'm fully aware that I am in the honeymoon period of pregnancy. I'm not large and in charge but I'm not sick and napping all of the time either. I'm just soaking up all that I can now and hopeful that it does a body good later. My goal is — and has been — to do what I can for as long as I can until it doesn't feel good. If it stops being enjoyable or rewarding, it will be time to step back and reassess.