At first, I thought it was just readjusting to life post-vacation. While I didn't go crazy in Colorado, I enjoyed the state and the company of my family. There was the most delicious ice cream at Sweet Cow in Louisville and a piece of fried chicken at White Fence Farms in Lakewood. I couldn't resist the donuts I brought home for the boys after Orange Theory, and I made an ice cream pie, which I had to sample, for my hosts.
Coming home, I was ready and almost excited to go back to NSNG. I picked up my favorite snacks at the store - pickles, olives, cheese, almonds - and prepared for a good week. My first day back to work wasn't so bad, though not great, but I figured that maybe I needed a day. Tuesday, I tried again and it went worse ... and worse ... and worse.
It wasn't my resolve that was wavering nor was I fed up with NSNG. Oh, no. It was that I could not handle the sheer amount of stress and tension in the workplace. We're undergoing a system change, and it is wreaking havoc. There are adjustments to be made, crashes to work through and attitudes that are developing. On top of it, there were vacations scheduled and everyone's task list grew.
Each night, I went home with knots in my neck and shoulders and hands that were groping for the ice cream scoop. Day after day, night after night, I was feeding the stress with sugar. A piece of candy here, a cookie there, a bowl of ice cream on the side. I was falling into the same behaviors that were a part of the reason I went NSNG in the first place.
I thought this week would be better. There are more people in the office, and the workload is more manageable. But tensions are still high, and I can still feel it in my shoulders - and my sweet tooth. I'm trying to be forgiving but, truth be told, I don't really like me when I'm this way, when I feel so out of control.
So, I'm putting it out there. I am making a pledge to me. This all stops TODAY.
Sorry to hear about your work stress! THat always gets me on the sweet tooth too. Good luck with taming it!
ReplyDeleteDude I feel your pain kind of! I am in post-Ironman I still want to eat everything but I am barely working out and I want dessert after every.single.meal phase!! I had given myself a week to get it out of my system but now we are in week 2 and I made brownies last night and there is ice cream in the freezer!!! :(
ReplyDeleteI hope work gets better and I hope your sweet tooth dies down!! I hope that you can tame the beast sooner than later. I will try and do the same!! :)
Thanks! A week of treats isn't so bad after an Ironman. The brownies and ice cream are a dangerous combo!
DeleteSweet Cow is so amazing! I'm assuming you didn't get donuts from Voodoo In Denver which is probably a blessing. They are incredible but total sugar bombs. I have a serious sweet tooth as well, I seriously have no control. Last week we made Snickerdoodles and I think I ate 90% of the four dozen we made...justifying it with training.
ReplyDeleteI should probably do a sugar detox too.
UGH! The worst. I am a total everything eater too....happy, sad, stressed, excited...I eat. I ALWAYS gain weight in stressful situations because I eat everything in sight. But I also know to forgive myself. And move on. You seem to be ready to do the same! You got this!!!
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