Monday, October 14, 2013

Weekend update + a pledge

This weekend was going to be one of celebration.

I passed my ACE exam with flying depth jumps, and we were going to Cincinnati. There would be time to visit my grandma, reconnect with family in from Colorado and get as much baby-cuddling with my cousin's 6-month-old.

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Miles getting ready for the drive to Ohio. Apparently, I am that bad of a driver.

It was glorious - even the 12-mile run over the hills of Cincinnati. We talked and laughed, hugged and laughed some more. Miles charmed my grandma, telling her that he "enjoyed" the York peppermint patty from Skyline Chili and complaining that church was "very, very loud" before Mass started and not using his library voice (because, as he stated, he didn't want to).

Beyond that, there was food. Lots and lots of food. Chocolate cake at dinner with my in-laws, their treat for passing ACE. Satisfries at Burger King on the drive down (gross, don't do it). Skyline Chili and LaRosa's for my Cincinnati fans, and a special treat from Mark - a pumpkin iced coffee from Dunkin Donuts - after my 12-mile run. At my uncle's house for the big family get-together, my cousin made no-bake peanut butter cheesecakes and there were deviled eggs as far as the eye could see.

I did manage to eat vegetables and fruit, whole grains and water but the good stuff did not outweigh the bad. I went to bed last night feeling bloated and nearly sick, and I knew that it was the downward slide of the diet. Not just over the weekend but the gradual increase in sugar. And, as one of my class regulars say, sometimes you just have to say enough is enough and do the work.

Enough.

While I'm not going to make a broad proclamation about ditching everything, I do want to feel good about what I'm eating and clean it up as I head toward Veterans (26 days and counting down). I want treats to be treats and food to be real food. I want to be mindful and purposeful, colorful and varied. I want to eat to feel my best and do my best.

Note: I am not saying this or deciding this because I feel bad about myself but, rather, because my self feels bad.

9 comments:

  1. You are a complete inspiration to me and this is one of those posts that I will rely on. It put my week in perspective! "Did the good outweigh the bad" Thank you!!

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    1. Thank you for the kind words! I think i might need to print out the "Did the good outweigh the bad?" and tape it up on the fridge.

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  2. I'm sorry, was this post to me (as the cheeseball residue is still on my lips)??

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    1. If you are not sharing a cheeseball, this post was definitely to you. There was a cheeseball at the party this weekend but it was not as good as the one my mom used to make and therefore did not count against me.

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  3. Don't worry, sounds like you're ready to get back on track!

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  4. I just finished a 21 day sugar detox and the difference in how I feel is amazing. It can be done!

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  5. I just ate an apple with the last of the salted caramel sauce I made for some apple bars a couple weeks ago. I need to say enough as well. I think once I'm back at work it will actually be easier to control...I hope.

    P.S. So excited for your marathon! Totally living vicariously through you. :-)

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  6. Yay on your Ace test!! Wonderful spending time with family!! and hey, whats done is done and your done and getting back on track =)

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  7. My favorite part of this post: "Note: I am not saying this or deciding this because I feel bad about myself but, rather, because my self feels bad. "

    Good example of not beating yourself up, but really and truly, just taking care of yourself and loving yourself more.

    Thanks for the great reminder!

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